A New Year of Flexible Boundaries…

So this is 2007? Happiest of New Years to you all…So much has happened in this past year that I cannot possibly begin, but suffice to say that the world has been as honest, open, and willing as I have been. Life for me today is a mirror of my attitudes and actions, and that seems to be working.

The guy who has purchased the land near my home is apparently “beautifying” the property to make it more attractive to developers. That’s a shame, but his actions are not illegal, and there isn’t much I can do about it. Unfortunately, many folks are up in arms, or trying to be up in arms, concerning this project. They do not seem to understand that they are not in control of the world, and when they try, their lives become unmanageable. Yes, they are Earthlings without a program.
One of the more distressing aspects of this ‘movement’ is that for some reason my name has been added to the list and seems to be a focal point for people wishing to have information. I have traced this back to the source and will address the issue at the proper time.

Let me just state, for the record, that this landowner is not breaking any laws, and that to interfere with his plans could constitute some sort of harassment or slander. Also, I do not wish, nor would I accept any nomination as leader, advocate, expert, Grand Pooh-Bah, or Chief Boat Rocker. Those who cannot fight their own battles, in this case specifically, should do just that and leave me out of it!

Since I had already tried to establish this flexible boundary, I now have to make it more firm, hence the firmer stance and stronger language.

I also need to be more disciplined in my life. When I was in jail (although it was a horrible experience that need not be repeated) I had a routine of reading and writing that kept me busy, focused on a task-at-hand, and constantly learning. I need to set up a similar system today. Besides my reading for homework, I need to set aside a certain amount of time (1 hour per day) for pleasure reading. My goal is to read The Brothers Karamazov by the end of March. I should also include some poetry as well. My sister gave me a wonderful book of poems for Christmas by the poet Martin Steingesser and I have begun to read some Rilke as well. With my schoolwork that should complete my day. I also need to get back to the gym. I have gained about 10 pounds back that I would like to lose. Of course it is all in my mid-section, so if I take these new boundaries one-day-at-a-time, I think I can do it. My goals? here they are…

1.Finish TBK by the end of March
2.Lose the 10 pounds and have it stay gone by that time as well
3.Remove myself from other people’s battles

That’s enough for me. I would like to build more model airplanes, and I will use that activity as a counter weight to the more serious, studious, or academic lives I live today.

So here’s to boundaries and the safety, security, and freedom they allow us all to have!

Huzzah!

Johnnyboy

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Johnnyboy is a queer recovering alcoholic. For the moment he is also the primary caregiver for his mother, who suffers from age-related cognitive impairment. She is happy as a lark and is surrounded by a crew of sober women which gives him the freedom he needs to get out of town. When he is not at home in Somewheresville, he is searching out the proper path to travel for happiness and joy. He is a photographer who believes in the digital age, but feels that film is still where its at. He has a darkroom and works in it. He is single and is in remarkably great physical condition for all the damage he has submitted his body to. His cardiologist is very happy. Johnnyboy is over the age of 35.