Amazing life today…

…And I don’t know what to do with it! My sponsor says to enjoy it, and I will, and am. He said that one of the aspects of our lives was that we never allowed ourselves to enjoy the life we lived. Of course, for all of you not in the know, I am speaking about the recovery process from alcoholism. So these are parts of my life that I am thankful for…

My sobriety
the ability to be there for family
doing well in school
being able to travel
helping other alcoholics
learning to live one day at a time

A few years ago I neglected the greatest resource given to me by Life: my family. I was in horrible straits, and in a great deal of legal trouble. Instead of asking for help and going to my family I tried to go it alone. Even those that I did tell vowed to keep it a secret. This was all to my undoing. My emotions suffered, my physical health suffered, and others suffered because of my fears.

Today I have family members going through very trying and difficult times, and they do not want to reach out, except to a chosen few. Many of us are being left out of the loop, but, as always, our hands are outstretched and the help is there if needed. I am using the tools and power of Step 3 to help myself with this situation. I am powerless over this reaction, but HP is not.

I need to allow the good parts of my life to enter my heart before I can know how to let other people in there as well. My sponsor told me that. He’s a smart guy and a keeper, I think.

My 5th Step went great the other day but it churned up a fair amount of sludge in the process.

So, for this I am very grateful. To have such a powerful resource as Sobriety and a program that works, as long as I work it fills me with a sense of serenity and connectedness that alcohol never gave me.

Oh, and by the way…I’m buying a new car in February, for my bio-birthday. I have looked around and finally picked one. The VW’s didn’t interest me, nor did the Toyotas, Hondas, Acuras, Kias, etc…

So I chose this one


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Johnnyboy is a queer recovering alcoholic. For the moment he is also the primary caregiver for his mother, who suffers from age-related cognitive impairment. She is happy as a lark and is surrounded by a crew of sober women which gives him the freedom he needs to get out of town. When he is not at home in Somewheresville, he is searching out the proper path to travel for happiness and joy. He is a photographer who believes in the digital age, but feels that film is still where its at. He has a darkroom and works in it. He is single and is in remarkably great physical condition for all the damage he has submitted his body to. His cardiologist is very happy. Johnnyboy is over the age of 35.

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