Impending doom?

I hate it when I suddenly feel as if my life hangs by some kind of thread. This kind of uncertainty drives me nuts and I start thinking all sorts of dark thoughts.

My theory about ‘smart sex’, is, of course, a joke. The majority of people who have a wonderful sex life do not base their coitus on intelligence. Obviously intimacy and trust are the major factors.

During writing class the other day I observed one or two facts. The first is that all 10 or so of us were there to learn something new to advance our lives. The second is, that, aside from the photography major and myself, everyone else was there for some kind of Social Science degree. Social Services, Criminal Justice, Children’s Education, etc…This must be a growing field, or at least one that appeals to folks over 30 who are going back to school. BTW, I am one of two men in the class. The other guy is there to improve his business writing skills. I think that the point I’m trying to make is that everyone seems to be so focused on their lives. I just want to learn and see what I can do with what is left of my life. My criminal record will exclude me from any decent teaching jobs (felons need not apply) so I feel like sometimes I am going to school just to kill time, to have something to do until the end…

I’ll probably update this blog later today, after I go work out and celebrate the sobriety of a friend.


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Johnnyboy is a queer recovering alcoholic. For the moment he is also the primary caregiver for his mother, who suffers from age-related cognitive impairment. She is happy as a lark and is surrounded by a crew of sober women which gives him the freedom he needs to get out of town. When he is not at home in Somewheresville, he is searching out the proper path to travel for happiness and joy. He is a photographer who believes in the digital age, but feels that film is still where its at. He has a darkroom and works in it. He is single and is in remarkably great physical condition for all the damage he has submitted his body to. His cardiologist is very happy. Johnnyboy is over the age of 35.

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