I stayed up late and watched “The Shawshank Redemption.” It is a wonderful movie about hope, value and reward of innocence and the punishment of greed. The downside is that I had a wicked nightmare that I was back in jail, this time for the rest of my life and all the gifts of sobriety had been taken away from me. I woke up and immediately hit my knees and said “Thank you!”, continued on with my daily prayer and began my day.
This is an old movie and thank God does not actually play very often in the theater of the mind. It can be distressing, but it does remind me of what could happen if I make the choice to go back out and try drinking again–jails, institutions and death. Not today.