Month: February 2007

This is a great thing, really, because it points towards progress, not perfection. Today I have made not only the decision to turn my will and life over to HP, the the wills and lives of others as well. I cannot control them any more than I can control my life if I add a drink to the mix.

My sister and niece will be coming back from their trip to The Big City this afternoon, and I hope by then my mother will have made some headway in packing for her trip up north. No one likes change around here, but strangely enough I am getting more used to it. I actually seem to invite change into my life and push through it, taking what I need from the experience and leaving the rest.

It has snowed again, and the world is covered in sugary frosting. I’ll go run and take a picture and post it tomorrow.

Until then…

Today is February 18th, 2007. Yesterday was my birthday, the 17th, and I officially celebrated 42 years on the planet Earth. That’s pretty amazing considering only a few years ago I was on the fast track going downtown…Things are looking up and I had a lovely day. Here’s the list–

1. Woke up without a hangover.
2. Asked for help to stay sober from HP.
3. made the Big Decision.
4. Went downstairs, where my mother had arranged a heart-shaped cookie
for my breakfast.
5. Read for about 4 hours and then typed up my homework due on Tuesday.
6. Made the bed in the guest room for my sister and niece to share.
7. Took a nap around 3:30.
8. Woke up, had a shower, a snack, and chatted with mom.
9. Went to a celebration/pot luck meeting with 4 other AA’s and truly enjoyed
the fellowship of friends.
10. Sang ‘Happy Birthday’ with them in the car on the way home.
11. Went to bed sober and sane and grateful.
12. Slept through the night.

So, all in all, a pretty amazing day. My sister and niece arrive in a few hours from Maine and I am slightly nervous. We don’t always see eye-to-eye and it is difficult for me not to place expectations on her being here, but I’ll let it go and have a good time. They’ll be in The Big City for a few days this week anyway, so they won’t always be here. Then, when they leave next week, they will be taking mom along with them for about a week and a half to give each of us a break from each other.

One of my new ideas (which I have already run by my sponsor) is that I may be changing homegroups. Don’t get me wrong, I love my current group, and feel that they are a great and diverse bunch of folks. In fact, I will still attend my regular Wednesday night meeting there. It’s just that there is this little group that I attend every Friday and Sunday nights that, although it may be well attended by others (15-20), rarely (if at all) has any official ‘group members’. There are only three to begin with anyway, and I would make it four. It’s a strong group, as well. The treasurer sends donations to GSO, District, and Area, and our GSR is 17 years sober this month. I think I’ll step up to the plate and go where I am needed. So at the end of March, when my coffee commitment is up at my current group, I’ll take my name off of their list. This feels right because there is no anger or resentment associated with the change. I am doing this for AA and myself. It’s kind of a new and light feeling.

Johnnyboy