Author: Johnnyboy

Johnnyboy is a queer recovering alcoholic. For the moment he is also the primary caregiver for his mother, who suffers from age-related cognitive impairment. She is happy as a lark and is surrounded by a crew of sober women which gives him the freedom he needs to get out of town. When he is not at home in Somewheresville, he is searching out the proper path to travel for happiness and joy. He is a photographer who believes in the digital age, but feels that film is still where its at. He has a darkroom and works in it. He is single and is in remarkably great physical condition for all the damage he has submitted his body to. His cardiologist is very happy. Johnnyboy is over the age of 35.

Final therapy appointment….and more…

Johnnyboy

Today was the final day of a 6 year relationship with my therapist. It went well, and we discussed what we had accomplished in that time. I owe him a great deal for my recovery from PTSD and other issues concerning my family, but it was time for me to sever the cord and go out in the world on my own. He gave me tools to live with, and showed me how to use them. I will always look back on this time as an enormous positive influence in my life.

This weekend is the NERAASA Convention in West Atlantic City, NJ. It will be a working weekend of panels, discussions, and service networking for GSO, regional, area, and district AA service folk from all over the Northeast US. It should be pretty big. I’ll be driving down with my DCM, co-Alternate DCM, and a few other GSRs. Pretty cool.

I have also finally liased the relationship between my mother and the home companion that will be living with her while I am in the Balkans this summer. A huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders with this act. Now I can focus more mental energy on my schoolwork and getting ready to leave for Europe on May 4th.

This sobriety thing rocks!

Johnnyboy

Gods will for me today…

Johnnyboy

I woke up too late for my own tastes this morning, thus losing a few hours that I could have worked on homework to further my own academic success. Then I received a phone call from another AA who I had asked to call if he wished. I think I might have a new sponsee in this fellow.

I am convinced, at least for the moment, that I should be doing Gods will and not my own. My will has to do with the aforementioned success and laudatory recognition. Gods will involves service, unity, and recovery and in being the hand of AA. I have plenty of time to work on the other stuff that makes my life pleasant and comfortable. But first I have to remember what my primary purpose is. I have been granted another chance at living, but not on my own terms.

Johnnyboy