Category: The Balkans

Finished work and the non-date…

Johnnyboy

I have finished and handed in the final draft of my thesis on Yugoslavia in the 20th century.  This has been a huge endeavor and represents 5 years of study, research and travel.  It is done.  I felt good, at the end, in making some bold presumptions concerning the future of SE Europe, and that was it.  Now there is a space in my life…What’s next?  I still have to write some personal words about my goals for photography for the b/w darkroom course I am engaged in and finish the small portfolio I have started.  I can do the lab work next week and write the paper today.  Then I will have finished the semester, take the fall off, and cross my fingers over the spring semester in Greece.  I have begun thinking that even if I do not get in to the school, that I will go anyway for the time and visit the southern Mediterranean during the off season, finishing up my trip with the Greek convention.  In many ways I need a break from the former Yugoslavia and Greece and Turkey might be the ticket.

The date did not happen. I asked and she said ‘no’, but nicely.  The experience put me in an emotional tailspin that landed me on my pity-pot for a few hours.  I lost all gratitude for the above experiences as well as the whole of the past 7 years of sobriety.  I eventually snapped out of it and let it go.

Mom has bursitis in her hip. She also thinks she has been driving her car for the whole year-and-a-half she has been in bed, in the hospital, or whatever.  What a shocker for her.  “Bullshit”, she said.  “I can drive…I still have my licence.” “Sorry, but you cannot.”  I guess we should all be thankful that she can fight back, but that’s all he can do.  She cannot win.  She’ll wreck the car if she gets behind the wheel.  Time to keep an eye out.  She might try to make a break for it…

Johnnyboy

Balkan Sobriety, 2009

Johnnyboy

After leaving the US, the first news from abroad I heard was in regards to the swine flu…The thought that I might be stranded in Europe was exciting and also a little dismaying.  Anyway, no real chance of that now.  The flight to Vienna was uneventful and I found a really
great AA meeting the night that I arrived. I will be in Vienna for a few days at the end of the trip, so I’ll check out more of the recovery scene while I scope out the museums and cafes.  On the flight over I watched ‘Frost and Nixon’.  There is a great quote about Vienna…’ It’s just like Paris, but without the French! ‘

The Croatian Convention was heartfelt and small.  Only 67 AAs were there, overshadowed by the youthful boisterousness of the NA group upstairs in the hotel. Many AAs did not come because they felt that the combination of the two groups at a convention was a violation of the Traditions, which it is.  Next year the two conventions will be separate, I think, but don’t hold your breath globetrotters.

I went to Bosnia after that and am still here, currently in Sarajevo.  I will be traveling on to Belgrade on Sunday and connect with my sober/clean friends in that city.  I will be there for about a week of meetings and museums and then I am off to Greece and the Greek Convention.  I have been invited to qualify while I am there and I am very nervous about it.

My school work is going well…I am through with last semester and am currently working on the summer session while on the road.

My CBE/PLA submissions have been shot through with annoying bullets by the evaluator, and while I will not appeal the findings and take the 8 credits she is offering me, I was shocked by the tone and language she used to describe my involvement in both the process and the years I worked in the food business.  I think it is best to focus on the Now and Future instead of the Past from now on.

Johnnyboy