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16/10/2005 Johnnyboy


So I am writing about my time in jail…

On the van ride over to the jail I was astounded at the casualness that some of the fellow riders were showing towards their future incarceration. Phrases like “Fantasy Island” were used and conversations about the chow hall menu ran around the back of the van. I stayed silent, and no one spoke to me. These guys were used to this kind of life, and as I would learn, it was an integral part of the world in which they lived. It was becoming apparent that jail was a step up in the world and a definite improvement over a cold and wet January on the streets. They would be fed, receive free medical treatment, sleep well, have clean clothes, cable TV, etc…No hassles. It was obvious that I came from a different, more privaledged, world. In my world no one starved or was forced to live outside or ever went without. This was a step in the wrong direction, I thought. But in the grand scheme of things I was able to remain fully accountable for my actions and served my time well. But I’m jumping ahead…

The van arrived at the jail and we unloaded into a holding area, with 2 large glassed in cells and a large desk with several Sheriff’s Deputies (COs [Correctional Officers]) at the ready. I was led to the desk and my paperwork was handed over to the CO in charge. It turned out that “2 years” meant “2 years, non-mandatory” which meant that if I worked hard and kept my nose clean, I could be out in 18 months. This was a ray of hope, however dim, suddenly lightening my bleak future. I was brought into a large tile and stainless steel bathroom and ordered to strip. My street clothes were bundled up and placed in a plastic bag, which was labeled. I then signed for the bag and its contents. Still naked, I was made to squat and cough. They looked in my mouth, ears, nose, ass, and between my toes. I suppose there are myriad ways to smuggle contraband. I was then handed a collapsible plastic bin with my new clothes (size large) and all of my bedding. I dressed in the un comfortable and cold clothing, all dark blue, with the letters “BCHC” stenciled on the back of the shirt. The style was essentially hospital scrubs. No pockets or belt loops. I didn’t have sneakers yet so I was given a cheap pair of rubber flipflops which I put on over my socks. Afterwards I was fingerprinted and my eyes were scanned for the optical scan, which is much more precise than a fingerprint. I had a basic medical history taken by a guard, some blood drawn to check for hepatitis, gonnorhea, and other diseases (but not HIV, that they charged for) and then handed my final paperwork. My ID tag was given to me. It was a small rectangular yellow plastic card, like a credit card, with my name, DOB, and inmate number. I was #1229. I was no longer Johnnyboy, or John, or anything else. I had left that identity wadded up with my suit in a clear plastic bag.

I was led to one of the large holding cells and told that if I wanted something to eat, dinner would be around soon. I was suddenly ravenous., so I said OK to that. When it finally arrived, the food was in an amber colored plastic tray with a lid. Inside were 4 compartments. In one was a small pile of overcooked broccoli. In another was a small pile of soggy egg noodles. There was a plastic cup of coffee (decaf), a half-pint of milk, and the piece de la resistance, the entree, baked cod. When I opened the lid of the tray, I almost swooned. The combination of odors from the broccoli and the fish almost killed me, but my mouth watered anyway, and I ate with a need I have yet to experience again. I was truly in a basic survival mode, and needed to eat.

With dinner finished the door opened and I was escorted down a well lit, extremely clean hallway towards what would be my home for the next month, D Pod. D Pod is where the newcomers were taken for final processing until they were able to be sent to one of 3 ‘population’ pods, either E, F, or H. Fate would send me to one of those pods, not my own doing. The large metal door slid open and I was in D Pod, which was painted gray-blue. There were about 40 other guys there, watching TV, playing cards, whatever. I was led to a special cell, where all the recent inmates are taken. It was in direct line of vision with the CO’s desk. It was the suicide watch cell. This was just a precaution. I wasn’t unique in that fact. Soon I would lose all belief in being unique, or different, or special. I would become Inmate # 1229.

The map at the top is a rough sketch. All the pods were laid out the same, so one map suits them all. So until tomorrow…

Inmate #1229

Been a long time…

15/10/2005 Johnnyboy

I apologize for the lack of entries. I’ve been busy and distracted, but life is going well for us here in Somewheresville. It stopped raining briefly this morning around 11AM and the sun came out. The fall colors were suddenly on fire and ultra-vibrant. An hour later the clouds moved back in and it started to rain…again. It has been raining now for 10 days. Enough is enough. Sweetie Pie is going crazy to be outside and I let her get out whenever she can manage it, but most days she has stood on the stoop and looked out at the weather. She’ll then look up at me and give a pitiful, aching, cry of “Why don’t you do something about this?” Ah, well, I am not a god, so I have to put up with the rain too.

I’ve been wanting to write about my time in jail for a few days now. Perhaps that’s why I’ve been avoiding writing. I need to start processing some of that experience and move away from the trauma and pain that it has caused me and my family. In a way, my haiku are a start. I did write them during my time behind bars, so sharing them is a beginning. But there is so much more to say. I kept a journal, which totaled about 1800 pages, and if I took my time and sifted through the entries, I could probably glean about 120 pages of really good stuff. The rest is just self-centered crap. I’ll do that later. For now I’ll start at the beginning…

When the gavel fell and I was sentenced to “2 years in the County House of Corrections” my mind went numb. I barely saw my mother slump in pain at my father’s side. I was immediately shackled at the wrists and ankles and taken from the courtroom, downstairs into a waiting room, where my pockets were searched. Before that happened I was able to hand my father my wallet, watch, belt, and tie. At the time I was wearing a 2-piece green suit that I had purchased a couple of years before for my sister’s wedding. When they searched my pockets, they found the dried remains of a single rose, the boutonniere I had worn on that day. The guard crumpled it up to make sure I wasn’t smuggling any drugs and then asked me what it was. I explained and he looked at me like I was crazy. He tried to pronounce “boutonniere”, but fumbled the word, giving me a sudden insight as to where I was headed. I was loaded into a Sheriff’s armored van with 3 other prisoners. It was raining and the afternoon sky was growing dark. As we drove through the small city to the jail, all I could see were the headlights of the cars behind us. At one point the van hit a bump and my glasses fell off my face. I was helpless, handcuffed, and almost blind in the dim light. I saw my glasses beginning to slide towards a space in the door. I was able through great dexterity and twisting of my arms to hook a finger around an earpiece and slide them back to where I could pick them up and put them back on. I never took them for granted again. It was then that I realized that what I was seeing out the back window of the van was the last I would see of the outside world for a long time. My mind turned on pure survival mode and I suddenly had no thoughts other than to save my own skin. I would make it through this dark time, somehow.

As the van pulled up to the chain link fence with its curly rings of concertina wire I sensed that this was to be the greatest challenge I had ever faced. Little did I know, that in the end, I would never want to change a single aspect of the experience. I was going to jail. It would not be like television or the movies. It would be completely different from any reality I had ever known. It would prove to be terrifying in its barrenness and mind-numbing in its boredom. But that, dear readers, will have to wait until tomorrow…

Inmate #1229

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