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I feel as if the world is being pulled from beneath my feet. I will never be able to show my face in my “homegroup” again. By my actions I have possibly destroyed what was a vibrant and cohesive unity in sobriety. It will never be the same and I will always be thought of as The Bad Guy.

Today is the 1st Anniversary of my being released from jail. This means it is also the first whole year of sobriety I have had outside those cold walls. This, too, is an anniversary of sorts. I will have 3 years of sobriety in December. I never had the luxury of working the first 2 years of sobriety in the real world. My first 2 years were spent in a jail cell, isolating as a necessary tool for survival.

No wonder I’m so screwed up.

Johnnyboy

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Johnnyboy is a queer recovering alcoholic. For the moment he is also the primary caregiver for his mother, who suffers from age-related cognitive impairment. She is happy as a lark and is surrounded by a crew of sober women which gives him the freedom he needs to get out of town. When he is not at home in Somewheresville, he is searching out the proper path to travel for happiness and joy. He is a photographer who believes in the digital age, but feels that film is still where its at. He has a darkroom and works in it. He is single and is in remarkably great physical condition for all the damage he has submitted his body to. His cardiologist is very happy. Johnnyboy is over the age of 35.