Strange things are a-happenin’….This month marks my 4th AA anniversary. I’m pretty humbled by the whole experience, actually, for a few reasons.
The first, I think, is that, besides my home group, no one has been announcing my anniversary. I have ended up announcing it myself, which I find very embarrassing and un-humble. So I have stopped doing that. I’d rather have the resentment and not worry about my 4th anniversary coming and going. Besides, it’s the ‘4th’, not the 5th, or some other hoop-dee-doo occasion. Yes, I know, I am venturing towards the pity pot a smidgen, but still…
The other humbling aspect is how much I have accomplished this year because of the help and support of AA and all the people in it. I have come a long way in the past 365 days and I could not have walked that many miles without a shoulder or two to lean on in the interim.
The third facet is that yesterday was my official sobriety date–December 15th–the day I finally became honest about my sobriety with my sponsor-at-the-time, Mike K. My physical date was sometime back in October, but that’s old history. So as of today I move into my 5th year, one day at a time, with the help of my HP an the people in AA. Funny, I threw my I Ching last night and it told me that I must sacrifice something I cherished in order to dedicate it to a higher purpose and by submission I will find my place in life and recognize my fate. Success follows this action. I think what I really cherish is my solitude. perhaps I must give that up in some way.
Pretty scary stuff for me.
On less important subjects—
I have begun Season 6 of ‘Buffy’, so I think that my goal of finishing all 7 seasons before New Years Eve might pan out. Also, I have the final 8 episodes of ’24–Season 5′ in my hot little hands, so I’ll wrap that up this weekend.
I am going to treat myself to a new winter coat today–not that the weather seems top warrant it…yet…
Johnnyboy
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